Thoughts a jumbled

I have not written her much. I also have not written much on either story I am supposed to be working on. (Sven is angry about that, but I told him to go pick on someone else.) I have been writing however, just not on either of those works. I have been writing in my journal a ton - the journal that is for me. I have been trying to straighten the thoughts out, make them make sense.

This for me is why I turned to writing many years ago, as a means to get the thoughts and feelings out. Expressing my feelings in person is hard. Verbalizing them is damn near impossible, with out a ton of practice (see my 100th post) but writing them, wow, if I just let myself go and write and write, they flow and eventually they make sense, eventually I reach a place where they make sense to me.

It is as if after all that writing, the answer is just there. Not always a break through, but a peace - not a truce - but an honest to goodness peace, a moment of clarity.

So hopefully now, with that dealt with, I can move forward with the business at hand - the better for the break but ready to attach the story that I want to get written.

Do you know what the problem is?

So today after running some errands (and me actually running 4.5 miles) we were on our way home. The exit ramp we normally take from the freeway was backed up big time, so I made the choice to go on an exit and come into town from a different direction.

As we pass under the overpass, L announces: "Well yep! that is this the problem - there are just too many cars!"

Actually I am sure that was part of it, more than likely someone did something stupid - but it was the way she said it, with such authority and conviction.

Ok I told you they were Just Freakin' Klueless, this proves it!

You must watch this video. It proves that the people who are in charge at JFK are in fact without a doubt - Just Freakin' Klueless......

I mean seriously, heads should role. We can orbit the earth, those folks cannot even keep the flow of planes going on a good day.....

Hate to say it, but I told you so....

Dont' like it.... Don't want it....

I have not mentioned E much. He is a little guy, but now in the last month or so he as gotten really verbal. Which is cool! I love it as kids come into language, what they pick up and what they test out. It is bits and pieces of what we say to them.

I find language accusation to be fascinating. How they sponge it up.

One of E's favorite things to say about something he does not want to do, to eat, to hold, to have - is "Don't like it... Don't want it....." Said just like that. Very matter a fact and very calmly.

I wish I could do that. There are so many things as an adult that we must do - which I would love to be able to reject as calmly and matter a factly as E does.

Riding in the Rain

Today H and I took the little people to an outdoor festival. We rode our bikes as it was not far from our house and I have become a biking junky. I love that I can combine outside time with my workout- it is fabulous!

So even with the threat of rain, off we went. We had a great time and then as we headed home the skies opened up and it was heavenly. The warm rain, gently pelting my skin. I loved it, it was as if the tears of heaven were reaching me.

I never used to enjoy the outdoors like I do now. I am drawn to the rhythm of nature. I like the feeling of the rain. I did not mind that my clothes were soaking wet and I did not mind that my hair was wet, in fact for the rest of the day I have enjoyed my soft rain conditioned hair and the smell of the earth, that I somehow absorbed during the ride.

There is something about rain in the summer time. It is cleansing and it gives everything a glow. When the weather is gloomy and rainy and cold, I am not happy to the see it rain. But in the summer, the rain is peaceful and soothing, it is warm and feels a bit like the shower.